I deplore
     being ignored.

For---

I am not a bore!

But it's perplexing sweet,
      and quite sexy too---
      to be ignored,
      ignored by you.


                       -Lang Leav

alas! you noticed it already, though i don't want to do such thing but i think it's needed
and i was never wrong, at least today you already see how worthy i am in many ways
i am bad and i am perfectly good at it, you still don't know how fierce and wild i am
sorry but i really mean it, it's not for you to suffer but to realize and for you to discern

how dare you to accuse me of loving coz of money, i am richer than you and your guys
in the first place i loved you before thinking you'll be able to give me that little amount of love
that small ounce of genuine love and care that i am longing to experience in the real life
however, you fail me but hope you see i never leave you, and i've learned a lot from that

honestly, i don't know what to say now, it's all up to you to bring back to what has loss
just keep in mind that whatever happened i never leave you, you're the one who betrayed me
i will always be here, i may not be the same like before, but i will be true to you until the end
thank you  for letting me change for the better and how i wish i could tell you this personally

thank you indeed for making me better and for keeping me stronger, i owe these to you
maybe i still like you but not as much as i like and love you very much going back to the past
thank you again, that for once in my life you let me took the risk in love though it didn't last
of course i can also say that you're lucky too to have me and i will never ever come back

i would not be doing it again coz that was all enough, i am too scared already to take the risk
you'll be the only person and the the last to do such thing on me, i will not let it happen again
just want you to know that loving is not easy, and as one friend told me, never played with love
it's really hard to be ignored and to feel unloved while you keep on loving and loving and loving

you're the most worst possible person to love, but darn, i was able to love you!
you've cause a lot of troubles already a long time ago but it was not an issue anymore
as a matter of fact i am thankful to you for letting me down, see i'm stronger and better
but i am not as brave as i am before, still i will always be here for you to count on

and if you think this is already goodbye, for me this is not yet the end of everything
you've been one of the the worst and the best part of my entire living, it will remain here <3



"siguro namate ko man talaga an pagpadangat mong totoo,
kaya lang kulang kumpara sa  kakadikit na hinahagad ko."

Out of nowhere i suddenly feel blue. There's something which i can't understand within me. It's been quite a long time since i blog about my heart and consult if it's still beating. Instead of talking about how my Valentine's day went out "umeksena na naman bigla ito <3 in the most unexpected time. I suddenly asked myself "KAILAN KO KAYA MAHAHANAP ANG TRUE LOVE KO?" It's kinda corny and peculiar but i wasn't able to find myself for how many minutes that i ended up listening to sad musics.

quotes from movies i can relate well today...

"all of us have someone who is hidden in the bottom of our hearts, when we think of this, we will feel like ummm... always feel a little pain inside, but we still want to keep it, even though i don't know where she is today, what is she doing, but she is the one who makes me know this, a little thing called LOVE."

"I have a heart and I can feel a million emotions all at once. I've felt more than enough this week. I am both physically and emotionally drained. Out of all the rain clouds hovering above me I can still find the time to smile and laugh. I've thought long enough, I've hurt long enough, time to smile. All I can do is look back and laugh. I'm standing in the eye of another storm in my life but imagine this, I'm in a clown suit with a water pistol pointed towards the rain clouds."

"If we can love someone so much? How will we be able to handle it the day when we are separated? And, if being separated is a part of life, and you know about separation well. Is it possible that we can love someone and never be afraid to lose them? At the same time, is it possible that we can live our entire life without loving anyone at all? That's my loneliness... I know just how bad loneliness feels. I fear it will continue to get worse."

Girls Need To Realize:


We guys don't care if you talk to other guys. We don't care if you're friends with other guys. But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact tha.........t we're still there. We don't care if a guy calls>OR TEXTS< you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. That it can't wait till the morning. Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you. The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence. Yeah, you can quote me. Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood im in. Let us pay for you! don't 'feel bad' We enjoy doing it. It's expected. Smile and say 'thank you. Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed. You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own. We like you for who you are and not what you are. Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up. Don't take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it. Don't get angry easily. Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that. Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful' i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of. On the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether ; ) Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!!!!! Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect Someone who will honor your morals. Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest. Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes. Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel. Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it. Give the nice guys a chance. Guys repost this if you agree. Girls repost this if you think it's cute.. Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.
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AGREE or DISAGREE? lol, was able to read this on my friends wall in FB, so i decided to repost it here because i find it sensible and since it's been so long the last time i posted something here.

It's my first post this month of November and i have not planned to do it this way. Instead i want something related to what happened to me last All Saints Day, but to keep in track i'll do my best to insert the woo-woos regarding to that matter and since the story i am going to tell you was before, during and after Halloween. Sorry in advance for the grammatical errors that i will make, i'll try to write in straight English.

Some people might don't have the idea that i had given up love for i think four months already. I was hardly and badly hit by an unfortunate love affair (as i may say but don't get me wrong LOL). It hit straight all throughout my psyche that i was able to tell my self not to love anymore. I also had this thoughts in mind not to marry in the future because i do really admit i was not a good lover at all and that no one can stand along with me for too long. Yes, it's so sad on my part but as i said to my self and as expected I choose to get hurt when i choose to be in love and that what am i experiencing today is the consequence of letting my emotions overrule my sanity. But what else could be good if the happiness you want was in that the same person whom you cannot be with for the rest of your life. You'll be willing to sacrifice even a little bit of everything just to be with that person. Whatever to me! Because she was never mine, we're not always together, i don't know exactly what kind of relationship we had, but surely she was one of my sweetest whatever. And that made me think of her for once in a while, like recently before Halloween came I was really hoping if i could see that same person i'd go crazy enough. And that hope turns to be that way. We were able to meet discreetly (take note discreetly not secretly LOL) No matter how many times i told myself not to bother and be involve with her anymore, i couldn't resist because i found comfort by her side. Yes, i am afraid of loosing grip for the second time yet my heart is still willing to open its door to the same person who might not be willing and able to take good care of it but absolutely will able to keep it beating. But i know this time the best way to avoid heart ache while staying close to her is to stay just as friends. Hence, i was very glad to meet her again and was able to hear from her alluring lips the words "I MISS YOU SO MUCH". As much as i want to reply, it's a no no, i want to hold back as long as i can. No matter how much i want to kiss and hug her i am scared that my efforts to become a better person for the last few months will just put into waste. I'll just keep myself to where i should be and don't linger anymore to my failures - mostly because of her. I'll just stay as a good friend to her, try not to fix what has been damaged and let go of what had happened, or else i might end up crazy. I think we're good as friends - talk about silly things, annoy and tickle each other and what friends usually do. I am happy that i am not bitter anymore since i got the chance to meet her again even just for a little while. Moreover, sometimes it's nice to forgive people no matter what they did just for the simple fact that you still want them be in your life.


I think i wrote too much already... And i'm already hungry... Eating... And i'm done eating... I think i also lost the spirit of writing about this thing but i'll try hard. Actually every year i look forward in celebrating Halloween because i always got the chance to see my old friends at least for this day - spend too much time hanging around, buy some liquors and brag anyone's achievements. But this year, i was not able to meet any of them. I don't know why or maybe because i was busy spending quality time with my family and relatives. Nevertheless, none in the group bothered to call or even text me to come along with them. Twas okay, i'm just being pathetic. Anyway, this year's Halloween was one of the most meaningful ever, since i was able to give the kids their treat instead of tricks and i was able to go home to my hometown to share special moments with my family. I had realized how caring and loving was mom towards me. I am so lucky to have her so with my father who is very diligent and hard-working though i know among all his siblings my younger brother was his most precious baby and i am the least. My elder brother has been always good every time he'll try to make a conversation while my younger brother keeps on teasing me. I feel so blessed to have them all in the verge of my distorted life. If you could just read this post, i really mean it Ma, Pa, Manoy and Kim. I love you guys!


I'm already enrolled by this time and i suddenly miss my good friends back in Ateneo. For the past 4 years of my life they have been witnessing how i grew up and preach as a man. They saw me laughing out loud, get angry, upset and once see me crying (if that's really the case) They've been occupying a big part on me already that sometimes i am very scared of being lonely. I love the way we hugged each other and sometimes give each other a kiss on the cheek. I just love the way these people love the way i am without no condition. They were also the reason why i once told myself not to fall in love anymore because i already have them beside me. You know guys who you are. You all are one of the best. On the other side, after Halloween we went to the cemetery to visit the in loving memories of _______ and _______ and _______ and _______ and etc. LOL We are missing you guys but my Aunts will surely have their heart attacks due to severe shock/scare if you'll dare to visit us.  LMAO The family count are decreasing already so i must start making more babies now. WTH? What i was thinking after Halloween was the things after i leave this world. Honestly, i am not afraid of death, what am i afraid of was the thought of easily forgotten by the people without leaving them a sort of legacy that will make my name memorable and a proof that i live my life earnestly. That's the thing i am learning to make all throughout my life if you would mind to ask. And if i die someday i am really serious about having my body cremated and send a portion of it to the moon. That's was way cool than being buried and decomposed after a year. I would like my ashes float in the ether and fall to the moon after a year. I heard it and saw it personally on TV, and said it would cost about 200,000. If i could just do it myself why not. Anyway after Halloween i got again the chance to see her. Of course to some point I am happy especially knowing that she's been looking for me all day long and that she really wants to see me for no valid reason. I don't give meaning to that since we already cleared each other as friends. I really like the way i get speechless whenever i see her and the way she tease me for being so conscious about myself seeing her. It's also good that for the first time she was able to see my family and relatives who are very supportive to me and that i already regain myself from the troubles she made. She's not anymore my life like what i used to say before, but she's still a part of it i'm sure because she taught me how to give without asking for any return. I am tired already writing this entry and i still have to wake up very early tomorrow. So that will be enough for now.

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di ko sinasadyang mahalin sya, minahal ko lang sya dahil nagbigay sya ng rason para mahalin ko sya.

wala namang kakaiba ng una kong makita ang simpleng picture nya
ni hindi ko nga napansin ang natatanging kagandahang taglay nya pala
nais ko lang makipagkaibigan at makipag-usap, walang halong pagnanasa


ilang buwan na halos ikaw ang ka-text, siguro wala lang mapaglibangan
o sadyang tayong dalawa lang ang nakakaintindi sa ating pinagdadaanan
hanggang sa unang pagkikita dun na ako nakaramdam ng something special


wala naman sa plano ko ang pumasok sa isang relasyon, masaya na ako
sapat na sa akin ang natatanggap na pagmamahal mula sa mga kaibigan ko
kuntento na ako sa kung ano man ang meron at mga bagay na wala ako


ewan ko ba, dati naman kasi lahat ng tao pare-pareho lang ang tingin ko
ewan ko ba, hindi ako marunong magmahal at pumuri ng ibang tao
ewan ko, hanggang sa isang araw biglang nag-iba na ang mundo ko


ewan, di ko namalayang unti-unti na akong nabubuhay kasama mo
ewan, di ko mapigilan ang sarili ko na mahalin ka pa hanggat kaya ko
ewan. di na ako yung dating ako na madalas sarado sa tunay na mundo


binigyan mo ako ng dahilan upang buksan ang sarili at mahalin ang tulad mo
binigyan mo ng katuparan ang isang bagay na akala ko hindi magkakatotoo
binigyan mo ng pag-asa at kulay ang mahalagang parte sa buhay ko


ikaw ang nagturo sa puso ko na magmahal ng totoo, higit pa sa inakala ko!
pero ikaw rin ang nagbigay ng rason upang sarilinin ko muli ang mundo ko.
SORRY sa una palang mali na ako, di ko sinasadyang mahalin ka at masaktan ng ganito.

dear harhar,

it's not enough to say that i've already moved on, that i'm so over with you, and that i don't love you no more because honest to goodness i know deep inside me i'm still in love with you. though not that intense anymore but the point was the feeling is still there. it's been a long time since we parted ways, i've been to many new experiences and undergone so many changes physically. you know what sometimes i regret to indulge into this crazy game called love. i was destructed and broken because of my foolish and self-satisfying acts. i pity you for having such demon in your life. i'm ambiguous and is not easy to understand by anyone, my words hurt, i am careless and all. however i must tell you that you're lucky to have me even for once. i love you three times as i love my self, i care for you as to the point that i don't mind others anymore, and i gave you what i know i can't give to others. *sigh* nonetheless, how come you left me so bad, you've promised me to stay every single day. i'm not asking too much because what i only want from you this time is your presence as a true friend. can't we be friends once again because we're good buddies in the first place. i know we are both ignored and broken but please be kind to me. you're still special to me and that will never change. you're the very first one to take my breath away and love me for who i am. i'm so grateful to have you no matter what. it seems like we're miles apart now even though i know you're just out there. this blog post was actually meant to be just a quotations but because my hypothalamus is overflowing with so much emotions, i can't stop writing how painful for me that a special friend before was looking at me as if i'm a stranger. no one is to be blame between the two of us, and i don't regret to have you after all the discernment i had. i just wish the best for you always, i always as always hope for your HAPPINESS beybi. you should keep on SMILING.

hindi naman ako yung tipo ng tao na babad lagi sa inuman
sa katunayan nga bibihira lang ako kung pumatol sa alak
minsan lang ako uminom at makipag-inuman sa buhay ko
pero ngayong gabi sagot ko ang inuman naming magpinsan
ewan ko ba kung anong pumasok sa kukote ko at nagyaya ako
siguro dahil mapera ako ngayon at feeling ko nasa kondisyon ako
nakailang bote na kami ng beer, siguro pangatlo o apat ko na to
pauli-ulit parin umiikot sa isipan ko ang mga pangyayari kanina
hindi ko mawari ang sarili: sa dapat gawin at reaksyon na ipakita
pinagtatagpo pa yata kami ni tadhana, pero sa mga di inaasahan
mga di inaasahan na muli kaming magtatagpo, at hindi siguro dapat

kakagaling ko lang sa banyo para umihi at nakailang tungga na ako
nakaidlip na nga ang pinsan ko, lasing na siguro ang loko-loko
pero ako buhay parin na nag-iisip ng tungkol sayo, tungkol sa atin
hay nagmumukhang gago na naman ako, at nagsalita ang pinsan ko
"16 daw at ewan di ko na naintindihan" siguro sa 16 may magaganap
aasahan ko ang pagdating at pagkikita nating muli sa darating na 16
sana makapag-usap na tayo ng maayos at ibuhos mo ng lahat sakin
handa naman akong tanggapin basta para sa ikaluluwag mo
kasalanan ko naman talaga siguro, kasalanan ko ang lahat lahat
pasensya kana kung nagkakaganito ako, baliw na yata ako
nag-iilusyon parin ako na balang araw tayo parin sa huli
sa huli na kahit walang ginagawa at pinagpapaguran ngayon
puro kasi ako ganito at ganito, hindi ako marunong magmahal
tulad ng pagmamahal na karaniwang naibibigay ng normal na tao
kung mababasa mo man ito sana naintindihan mo ang nais ko.

hindi ko naman ipinagkakait ang sarili ko na maging magkaibigan tayo
muli muli sa pagkakaibigan naman talaga nagsimula ang lahat
at kung di papayagan ni tadhana, sana magkaibigan parin sa huli
kausapinm mo ako, magalit ka, basta marinig ko lang boses mo
lasing na siguro ako!

LASINGGERO ka ngayong gabi. =p

IF IT'S LOVE THEN IT MUST BE GOOD.


Remorse never scratched my system. 
I love you and it won't make any sense if I say I don't.
I'm hurt. What else will you expect me to feel?
Oh well, HURT, was an understatement.
But would you believe that I'm happy for you?
That made some fucking difference. I'm happy when you're happy.
So what about my ever static affection?
I'll get some doctor to help me out this shit.
As I always say, "I'll be just fine...pretending I'm not"haha
I'll be better soon.
*sigh
It has been an illusion.
You must have told me earlier.
I will accept it really, like, do I have any other choice?
Bitterness? Hard feelings? Of course!
Tao rin ako, dude!
But I'll still be your friend. Just give me some time.
How life played tricks on me.
So, I guess, this will be the end of my illusion.Eto na 'yung most awaited moment mo...
"move on and get a life, youll die waiting for that freaking guy."

Thank you. :)
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i guess this is the end i must say, i may not totally forget you but surely you've been one the happiest event that ever happened to me.

XIE just had a conversation with someone close to her heart last day, November 30, 2010, the last date of the month before December comes. She's been with JAH since then; when Xie began to open and started to live a life in the bitterness of this world. Xie is not a typical girl with different kind of thinking, she's platonic. While Jah is like everybody's girl with common ideals in her mind, but she's weak. Everybody knows how close they are, but no one has an idea how deeply they were broken and devastated by LOVE - by their past relationships. Just last day, they were talking and eating sundaes at Mcdo. They were just in their usual tone of conversation and oftentimes they laugh to death. Until one finally, or might as well to say, the two finally began to go deeper... discuss serious matters... argue... reflect... laugh... and save the memory.

INTRO:
Interior - sa loob ng Mcdo kung saan 1st floor lang ang ukupado, sakto lang ang tao, at nakaupo sila sa may malapit sa counter.
Exterior - Magulong kalsada at maraming taong naktambay sa labas, iba't ibang repleksyon ang makikita sa bawat mukha.

XIE: dito nalang tayo maupo, ibili mo na rin lang ako ng isang hot caramel sundae.

JAH: Okay! at pahiram narin ng sampung piso kasi kulang ako.

Habang umo-order si Jah, hindi maiwasang tumingin tingin sa paligid ni Xie. Baka may makasalubong ang mata na kakilala at makalimutan na ang kanina lang na kaniyang nakasalubong sa daan. Isang pamilyar na mukha, at mukhang hindi ni Xie makakalimutan malagas man ang lahat ng kahoy sa kagubatan. Nataranta sya sapagkat hindi nya nalaman ang dapat gawin at natural na reaksyon. Maya-maya pa'y nahuli niya ang kanyang sarili na nakatitig sa isang batang lalaki sa may kalapit mesa. Una nyang napansin ang suot na antipara nito na medyo nahuhulog na sa pagkakapatong sa ilong. Para bang nakikita ni Xie ang sarili sakanya sa kabila ng kaibahan ng kasarian. Napaisip si Xie:

*Sana hindi siya matulad sa akin, sana hindi nya tangkain pasukin ang mundo na sa di tamang panahon aking piniling tahakin, mahirap at magulo, higit sa lahat masakit masaktan dahil sa kasakiman ng ibang tao. Kung maaari ko lang syang lapitan at pagsabihan, huwag mo madaliin ang buhay, magpakasaya ka habang bata at huwag hanapin ang bagay na walang kasiguruhan. Sana sana sana huwag syang matulad sa akin na maagang umibig at sawing iniwan ng inibig.*

JAH: *smile* Friend eto yung sundae mo

XIE: Tnx friend *smile*

JAH: Anong iniisip mo Xie di ka masyadong nagsasalita

XIE: Wala tinitignan ko lang yung bata kanina dyan sa may kalapit mesa, ang cute kasi.

JAH: Saan? uhmmmn? hehe ang cute rin nung isang bata parang ako lang, kumusta pala?

XIE: Huh? bakit?

JAH: Wala naman, hahaha

XIE: Wala dina-divert ko lang ang sarili ko para makalimutan yung nakita kanina lang.

JAH: Ehem!

XIE: Maling timing lang siguro, nagbabagong buhay na ako Jah at inaayos ang aking sarili para sa kanya. Na para sa hinaharap kung kami'y muling magkikita ay may ihaharap na akong mukha at kaya ko na syang kausapin ng normal na walang pag-aalinlangan. Di ba nakwento ko na rin naman sayo dati pa.

JAH: Sino ba ang ating pinag-uusapan? haha

XIE: Siya yung alam mo na, yung nakasalubong natin kanina lang.

JAH: Ah akala ko yung isa, di mo naman kasi sinabi agad.

XIE: Hay naku, ewan ko sayo, i'm moving on na friend at ilang buwan na ang nakakalipas, pinagsisisihan ko na ang lahat, kung bakit ko pa binuhay ang mundo na dapat pala hindi ko pinagnasahan. Hindi ko naman kasi alam na ganoon yun nakakatakot at kagulo, hindi mo naman kasi ako binalaan. Sana di na nangyari sa akin ang nangyari pa saiyo.

JAH: *speechless* sometimes you need to experience such pain, aaminin ko nasaktan din ako ng sobra sobra dahil sa letseng PAG-IBIG na yan, ang salitang hindi mo kayang pakawalan sa iyong  bibig. Masakit pero tanggap ko na at kailangan ko magpatuloy ng wala na sya, anong magagawa ko kung may mahal na siyang iba, at hindi ako yun. Ibinigay ko naman ang lahat pero kulang parin sapagkat iba naman pala ang kanyang hinahanap. Oo, tanga parin ako minsan pero hindi na ngayon ng dumating ang isang taong muling magbibigay kulay sa aking buhay, mas matatag na ako at marunong na akong mag-isip bago gumawa ng isang desisyon. Sana ikaw din. Bilib nga ako sayo.

XIE: *speechless din* Sana nga nakamove on kana. Kasi MOVING ON and LETTING GO is par different from each other, I must say. Pwedeng nakamove-on kana nga pero ang tanong kung nakalet-go kana rin ba, o pwede naman nag-let go ka nga pero hindi ka naman nag-move on. Sa sitwasyon ko, i've already moved on and as i promise myself, kung ikaw it took you two years to move on and maybe you've already let him go, ako sinabi ko sa sarili ko tama na ang 2 months na sakit ng pag move on at sabay na rin ang pag let go. Actually this is the last day of it, it's been two months since then, dalawang buwan na ang nakalipas ng iniwan rin ako ng isang taong sa tingin ko hindi naman karapat-dapat sa pagmamahal na ibinigay ko pero nagpaloko parin ako, pinili ko kasing maging gago, ibinigay ko ang lahat lahat, hindi ko alam marami pala kami sa puso nya. Isa lang ako sa mga isda na pinagpipilian nya sa isang malawak na palaisdaan. Sh*t ako pero okay lang, kaya kong magbago at maging bagong tao, para sainyo ang ginagawa ko, hindi ko man maibalik ang dating ako, at least i will assure others that i'll become a better person sooner or later. Alam kong hindi na sya maalis sa buhay ko pero naniniwala ako na balang araw katulad mo may magbabago ng mga masasamang karanasan ko at magiging isang aral nalang ito. Hindi pa ako handa umibig at parang ayaw ko ng nga munang umibig. Siguro ang pag-ibig para dun lang sa mga taong manhid at matalino pagdating sa usapang puso. Hindi ako magaling dun, mag-aaral muna ako, at bukas December na, asahan mong nakamove-on at nakalet-go na ako Jah. Ibang-iba siguro talaga ako kumpara sainyo. STROOOOOOOOOOOOONG AKO!

JAH: Hmmmmn para ngang wala naman nangyari sayo, hindi ko halata. Pero pagmamahal ba yun na hindi kaman lang nag-mourn o para bang nawala sa ulirat. Pag-ibig ang pinag-uusapan natin pero parang wala lang talaga nangyari sayo kung hindi ka pa nagkuwento sakin.

XIE: Hindi naman kasi ganun, sa akin tama ng naramdaman mo ang sakit. Huwag mo ng ipakita kasi ikaw lang din naman ang kawawa. Magaling ako humawak pagdating sa aking emosyon. Hindi lahat ng bagay dapat ipakita sa tao. Sapat ng may isang taong nakakaalam ng pinagdaraanan ko at hindi ko lang ito tinatago sa puso ko. Pero ang umiyak para sa sakit, hindi ko ugali yun, ang paniniwala ko kasi, ang pag-iyak dahilan ng sobrang galak, kasiyahan, at kung anong magagandang bagay na nag-uumapaw.

JAH: Sabagay may punto ka dun Xie, o siguro ibang klase ka lang talaga mag-isip. Iba ka sa mga tipikal na tao na nabubuhay dito sa mundo. Strong ka nga at iyan ay napatunayan ko. Sana ako rin.

XIE: Strong ka rin kaya Jah, strong sa inuman.

JAH: LOL, walang ya ka talaga, natatawa na lang ako sapagkat isang pag-uusap na naman na makabuluhan ang nagawa natin at para tayong shongak, balang araw maaalala ko ito, baka ikaw din, at magtatawanan uli tayo. Tatandaan ko ang mga sinabi mo.

XIE: Tara na!

EXTRO: 
Interior - Tatayo ang dalawa at aakbay si Jah kay Xie, nakangiting maglalakad palabas
Extro - Naghihintay ang isang grupo ng mandurukot...

oo aaminin ko minsan

namimiss ko ng mahalin at magmahal

sa isang taong mahal ko at mahal din ako,

pero lahat ng tao nalang kasi tinatawaran

ang pagmamahal ko.

kontento na ako sa ganito,

walang luha walang pusong luhaan

masaya na akong maging ganito,

masaya na ako sa mga kaibigan ko,

maging masaya na lang palagi

at walang iisipin na kahit na ano

kundi ang walang katapusan na pagtawa

sumasaya parin naman ako kahit wala ka,

sumusobra nga lang kapag andyan ka.

siguro talaga hindi lahat ng dumadaan ay bumabalik

kaya di na siguro ako maghihintay at magpapatuloy nalang.

sayang lang...

kaya mo nga syang mahalin

tulad ng pagmamahal na

ibinigay ko sayo

pero tatandaan mo:

WALANG IBANG TAONG KAYANG INTINDIHIN,

UNAWAIN AT HIGIT SA LAHAT MAHALIN KA

TULAD NG PAGMAMAHAL NA IBINIGAY,

IBINIBIGAY AT KAYA KO PA SANANG IBIGAY SAYO.

darating din ang panahon na hahanapin mo ang presensya ko
PAALAM! ^__^